ITZ OFFICIAL.....I'M INSANE........

I KNOW THIS FOR SURE NOW AS I SAT AT MY MOTHERZ GRAVE YESTERDAY AND WAS SPEAKING TO HER LIKE SHE WAS ALIVE!!
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I LOST TRACK OF THE TIME UNTIL I SENSED MY BROTHER AROUND(SINCE I WAS A CHILD I COULD ALWAYS FEEL HIS PRESENCE NEAR ME) AND LOOKED UP. THERE HE WAS COMING WITH HIS SIBLINGS AND THEY ALL LOOKED SHOCKED TO SEE ME. ALL ASKING HOW I GOT THERE, IF I'M OK, HOW HAVE I BEEN, ETC...., EVERYONE BUT MY OLDEST SISTER, SHEZ DA ONE THAT I KEEP IN CONTACT WITH AND KNOWS ALOT OF WHATZ GOING ON WITH ME.
BEFORE THEY COME THOUGH, I WAS BUSY TELLING MY MOM ABOUT HOW MUCH I'VE PROGRESSED, SINCE HER DEATH, AS WELL AS THE DRAWBACKS, WHICH HAS BEEN A FEW RECENTLY.
WE TALKED OF OLD TIMES AND FUNNY INSTANCES OF THEM AND NOW. SHE REMINDED ME OF THE LAST TIME THAT SHE GAVE ME A BEATING AND Y SHE LAUGHED WHEN I GRABBED THE BELT AND TOLD HER TO STOP CAUSE I WAS ONLY CRYING TO MAKE HER FEEL GOOD AND IT HASN'T HURT IN YEARS, SO PLEASE STOP.
WE TALKED OF HOW BIG ADAM IS NOW AND BIG HE HAS GOTTEN AND HOW SMART HE IS. SHE SAID THATZ BECAUSE SHE HAS GOOD GENES!!!!
LOL LOL LOL SHEZ FUNNY THAT LIKE THAT.
I TOLD HER HOW MUCH HE STILL TALKS ABOUT HER AND SHE SAID HOW MUCH SEE MISSES THE TALKS SHE USED TO HAVE WITH HIM. I SAID, SO DO I. I ADMITTED TO HER HOW MUCH I USED TO GET JEALOUS OF THEIR RELATIONSHIP. AND SHE LAUGHED SAYING THAT SHE KNEW ALL ALONG. BUT IT COULDN'T BE HELPED.
SHE HAD TO WORK AND COULDN'T SPEND THE TIME NEEDED WITH ME, I SAID I KNEW. I'M COOL WITH IT.
SHE GOT PISSED WITH ME ABOUT MY NOT TAKING CARE OF MYSELF THE WAY I USED TO AND THAT SHE WAS THE CAUSE OF IT.
I TOLD HER NOT TO SWEAT IT AND SHE LAUGHED SAYING THAT I ALWAYS SAY THAT TO EASE HER MIND ABOUT THINGS.
I SMILED BACK.
IT WAS A GOOD CONVO.
SHE EVEN ASKED WHEN SHE IS GETTING SOME MORE GRANDCHILDREN FROM ME.
I HAD TO LAUGH, I TOLD HER THAT I TRIED TO, EVEN WAS DOING IT THE RIGHT WAY AND WAS GONNA GET MARRIED AND ALL, BUT THAT PLAN WENT AND BLEW UP IN MY FACE.
SHE GOT PISSED!!!!!!!
SHE ASKED IF IT WAS WORTH IT AND I SAID THAT I DIDN'T KNOW AND TO FORGET ABOUT IT.
ITZ TIME TO MOVE ON.
SHE ASKED, WHENZ MY NEXT VISIT CAUSE SHE MISSES OUR TALKS AND I SAID THE NEXT TIME I FEEL WORTHY TO BE HERE.
SHE SAID SHE UNDERSTOOD AND KISSED ME GOOD-BYE.