REALIZATIONS........
LAST NIGHT I REALIZED JUST HOW MUCH THINGS HAVE CHANGED WITHIN ME AND HOW I RESPOND TO THINGS. I WAS TALKING WITH SOMEONE AND WE ALLOWED SOMEONE TO GET IN ON A THREE WAY CALL. AFTER A COUPLE OF JOKES AND JABS AT ME, THE PERSON WHO HAD CALLED ASKED FOR ME TO CALL THEM BACK. NOW, I DID AS ASKED, ONLY TO HEAR GIBBERISH RAMBLINGS ALL OF A SUDDEN, BECAUSE THEY ARE NOW TIRED.
NOW MY QUESTION IS WHY THE HELL ASK ME TO CALL WHEN UR ASS AIN'T GOT NOTHING TO SAY AND REFUSE TO GET THE HELL OFF THE PHONE.
WAS I NICE BECAUSE OF A PAST RELATIONSHIP?
POSSIBLY.
DO I LIKE MY TIME WASTED?
HELL THE FUCK NO!!!
SHE AIN'T HEAR NOT ONE THING I SAID, BUT SHE WANTS THINGS TO BE BETTER WITH US?
YEAH RIGHT!!!!
*TWISTED LIP, PUCKERED SNEER*
I GUESS THE ONLY SOLUTION THAT I CAN THINK OF NOW TO DO, IS TO TREAT HER LIKE SOMEONE I JUST MET AND NOT SOMEONE I'VE HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH.
SHOULD I EVEN THINK OF HER IN MY FUTURE ANYMORE IN ANY CAPACITY?
THAT REALIZATION HASN'T HIT ME YET, BUT I'M SURE IT WILL REAL SOON.
WHAT I KNOW FOR SURE IS THAT THIS WON'T EVER HAPPEN AGAIN!!
WHAT KILLS ME IS HOW PEOPLE COMPLAIN OR CRITICIZE HOW I AM AND NEVER NOTICE HOW MUCH THEY CONTRIBUTE TO WHO I AM OR WILL BE.
NOW MY QUESTION IS WHY THE HELL ASK ME TO CALL WHEN UR ASS AIN'T GOT NOTHING TO SAY AND REFUSE TO GET THE HELL OFF THE PHONE.
WAS I NICE BECAUSE OF A PAST RELATIONSHIP?
POSSIBLY.
DO I LIKE MY TIME WASTED?
HELL THE FUCK NO!!!
SHE AIN'T HEAR NOT ONE THING I SAID, BUT SHE WANTS THINGS TO BE BETTER WITH US?
YEAH RIGHT!!!!
*TWISTED LIP, PUCKERED SNEER*
I GUESS THE ONLY SOLUTION THAT I CAN THINK OF NOW TO DO, IS TO TREAT HER LIKE SOMEONE I JUST MET AND NOT SOMEONE I'VE HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH.
SHOULD I EVEN THINK OF HER IN MY FUTURE ANYMORE IN ANY CAPACITY?
THAT REALIZATION HASN'T HIT ME YET, BUT I'M SURE IT WILL REAL SOON.
WHAT I KNOW FOR SURE IS THAT THIS WON'T EVER HAPPEN AGAIN!!
WHAT KILLS ME IS HOW PEOPLE COMPLAIN OR CRITICIZE HOW I AM AND NEVER NOTICE HOW MUCH THEY CONTRIBUTE TO WHO I AM OR WILL BE.
posted by TYGAH "SABRE" THOMAS | 1:54 AM
2 Comments:
why do you allow anyone to contribute to who you are or who you will be?
i can see adjusting one's behavior when in the presence of certain people. i do it all of the time, because some people are more sensitive than others, and so forth.
but to allow others to have that type of serious influence over you, so much that they contribute to who you are or will be? aside from a child or parent, i dont see how that is a good thing.
just a thought...
BABE?
UR WORDS HIT CLOSER TO HOME THAN EVEN U REALISE. WHILE ITZ TRUE THAT EVERYONE U MEET HAS SOMETHING TO OFFER, ITZ UP TO U TO CHOOSE WHAT UR WILLING TO ACCEPT FROM THOSE FOLKS.
SO YEAH, THEY DO CONTRIBUTE, UNKNOWINGLY, TO WHO U ARE DESTINED TO REALLY BE. BUT THE JOURNEY THERE IS USUALLY ONE THAT IS FUCKED UP TO TRAVEL. IN MANY INSTANCES, U'VE HELPED BRING ME BACK TO A "REALIZATION" OF WHO I AM, WAS AND WILL BE.
AND FOR THAT ALONE, I CAN'T THANK U ENUFF!!!!
*MUAH*
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