TOMORROW IS THE 3RD TIME.....
HERE I AM PREPARING MY MIND SET FOR WHATEVER HAPPENS TOMORROW WHEN I GO TO COURT AGAIN FOR MY SON.
HONESTLY, I'M EVEN STARTING TO WONDER IF ITZ ALL WORTH.
I MEAN, THE BOY KNOWS WHO I AM AND HOW TO GET IN CONTACT WITH ME. HE CAN'T LOOK IN A MIRROR AND NOT SEE ME, YA KNOW?
IN THE LONG RUN, ITZ HER WHOZ GONNA SUFFER IMMENSELY(?) AND ITZ HER OWN FAULT.
A LADY FROM A.C.S. CAME TODAY TO CHECK AND SEE IF I HAD SAFE LIVING CONDITIONS FOR MY SON AND WAS SURPRISED TO SEE HOW MANY PICTURES OF MY SON I HAD ON MY COMPUTER. SHE WAS TAKEN BACK BY THE THINGS THAT MY SON'Z MOTHER HAS DONE SO FAR. AND BASED ON HER FACIAL EXPRESSIONS ALONE, THINGS LOOK LIKE THEY ARE GONNA GO MY WAY WHEN SHE HANDS HER REPORT TO THE JUDGE. BUT U NEVER KNEW AND I HAVE TO BRACE FOR THE WORST.
I'M ALMOST PUT OF FROM HAVING MORE CHILDREN BECAUSE OF THIS EXPERIENCE. BUT ON THE OTHER HAND, I CRAVE MORE CHILDREN AND REALLY NEED TO BE CAREFUL NEXT TIME AS TO WHO I LET ME MY CHILDZ MOTHER.
I JUST DON'T KNOW THOUGH.
IF I CAN'T TOLERATE THEM FOR MYSELF, HOW CAN THEY BE GOOD CO-PARENTS WITH ME?
I AM SOOO SERIOUSLY THINKING OF ENDING ALL OF MY RELATIONSHIPS JUST SO AS NOT TO BE BOTHERED AND/OR STRESSED ANYMORE. THE REGRESSION I'VE MENTIONED B4 ALMOST CAME TO A HEAD LAST SATURDAY AND I HAD TO FIGHT WITH EVERYTHING IN ME TO STAY CALM. THE INNER DEMON IS RAGING TO COME OUT AGAIN, DON'T KNOW HOW LONG B4 HE TRIUMPHS.
I HAVE SOOOO GOT TO FIND SOMEONE THAT CAN HELP QUELL THAT SURGE THATZ BUILDING UP WITHIN ME REALLY SOON.
HONESTLY, I'M EVEN STARTING TO WONDER IF ITZ ALL WORTH.
I MEAN, THE BOY KNOWS WHO I AM AND HOW TO GET IN CONTACT WITH ME. HE CAN'T LOOK IN A MIRROR AND NOT SEE ME, YA KNOW?
IN THE LONG RUN, ITZ HER WHOZ GONNA SUFFER IMMENSELY(?) AND ITZ HER OWN FAULT.
A LADY FROM A.C.S. CAME TODAY TO CHECK AND SEE IF I HAD SAFE LIVING CONDITIONS FOR MY SON AND WAS SURPRISED TO SEE HOW MANY PICTURES OF MY SON I HAD ON MY COMPUTER. SHE WAS TAKEN BACK BY THE THINGS THAT MY SON'Z MOTHER HAS DONE SO FAR. AND BASED ON HER FACIAL EXPRESSIONS ALONE, THINGS LOOK LIKE THEY ARE GONNA GO MY WAY WHEN SHE HANDS HER REPORT TO THE JUDGE. BUT U NEVER KNEW AND I HAVE TO BRACE FOR THE WORST.
I'M ALMOST PUT OF FROM HAVING MORE CHILDREN BECAUSE OF THIS EXPERIENCE. BUT ON THE OTHER HAND, I CRAVE MORE CHILDREN AND REALLY NEED TO BE CAREFUL NEXT TIME AS TO WHO I LET ME MY CHILDZ MOTHER.
I JUST DON'T KNOW THOUGH.
IF I CAN'T TOLERATE THEM FOR MYSELF, HOW CAN THEY BE GOOD CO-PARENTS WITH ME?
I AM SOOO SERIOUSLY THINKING OF ENDING ALL OF MY RELATIONSHIPS JUST SO AS NOT TO BE BOTHERED AND/OR STRESSED ANYMORE. THE REGRESSION I'VE MENTIONED B4 ALMOST CAME TO A HEAD LAST SATURDAY AND I HAD TO FIGHT WITH EVERYTHING IN ME TO STAY CALM. THE INNER DEMON IS RAGING TO COME OUT AGAIN, DON'T KNOW HOW LONG B4 HE TRIUMPHS.
I HAVE SOOOO GOT TO FIND SOMEONE THAT CAN HELP QUELL THAT SURGE THATZ BUILDING UP WITHIN ME REALLY SOON.
posted by TYGAH "SABRE" THOMAS | 5:46 PM
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