JUST CAN'T DO RIGHT.......
I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO DO RIGHT BY FOLKS. NORMALLY IT WOULDN'T MATTER, BUT THIS IS WITH SOMEONE THAT I HAPPEN TO ACTUALLY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT.
EVEN THOUGH WE DIDN'T START OUT AS FRIENDS, ITZ WHERE WE ARE NOW OR TRYING TO BE NOW. BUT THE TRANSITION SEEMS TO POSSESS THE SAME KIND OF BOVINE FECES AS THE NON-RELATIONSHIP HAD.
SO WHAT THE HELL TO DO NOW?
I CARE WAY TOO MUCH TO ABANDON THE FRIENDSHIP OR HER. BUT I HONESTLY DON'T THINK SHE SEES THAT AND ALOT OF WHAT SHE SAYS JUST FUCKING HURTS. BUT I'M A MAN AND MEN DON'T FEEL PAIN LIKE THAT, RIGHT?
SOMETHING HAPPENED TO HER RECENTLY AND I'M JUST NOW HEARING ABOUT IT. SO I ASKED HER ABOUT THE TIME FRAME OF WHEN IT HAPPENED AND SAID NOTHING ELSE ABOUT IT.
THEN SHE ASKS(PARAPHRASING HERE)IF I CARED.
WHAT THE FUCK?????????
WHERE THE FUCK HAS SHE BEEN TO NOT KNOW THIS OF ALL THINGS?
I FUCKING LOVE THIS CHICK AND THIS IS WHAT SHE ASKS ME?
I SAID THAT I WASN'T GONNA ANSWER IT CAUSE SHE SHOULD KNOW IT BY NOW.
*BAMMM*
HERE COMES THE TANTRUM!!!!!
DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE OF IT THAT I CAN TAKE.
EVEN THOUGH WE DIDN'T START OUT AS FRIENDS, ITZ WHERE WE ARE NOW OR TRYING TO BE NOW. BUT THE TRANSITION SEEMS TO POSSESS THE SAME KIND OF BOVINE FECES AS THE NON-RELATIONSHIP HAD.
SO WHAT THE HELL TO DO NOW?
I CARE WAY TOO MUCH TO ABANDON THE FRIENDSHIP OR HER. BUT I HONESTLY DON'T THINK SHE SEES THAT AND ALOT OF WHAT SHE SAYS JUST FUCKING HURTS. BUT I'M A MAN AND MEN DON'T FEEL PAIN LIKE THAT, RIGHT?
SOMETHING HAPPENED TO HER RECENTLY AND I'M JUST NOW HEARING ABOUT IT. SO I ASKED HER ABOUT THE TIME FRAME OF WHEN IT HAPPENED AND SAID NOTHING ELSE ABOUT IT.
THEN SHE ASKS(PARAPHRASING HERE)IF I CARED.
WHAT THE FUCK?????????
WHERE THE FUCK HAS SHE BEEN TO NOT KNOW THIS OF ALL THINGS?
I FUCKING LOVE THIS CHICK AND THIS IS WHAT SHE ASKS ME?
I SAID THAT I WASN'T GONNA ANSWER IT CAUSE SHE SHOULD KNOW IT BY NOW.
*BAMMM*
HERE COMES THE TANTRUM!!!!!
DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE OF IT THAT I CAN TAKE.
posted by TYGAH "SABRE" THOMAS | 9:59 PM
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WELL, SHE NEEDS TO REALIZE THAT I'M NOT THOSE THAT HAVE HURT HER IN THE PAST. AND THAT ALONE IS FRUSTRATING ALONE, NOT KNOWING IF ITZ REALLY ME SHE SEES B4 HER OR A SHADOW FROM HER PAST.
THE TIME SHE TAKES BEING AFRAID OF ME, SHE SHOULD DRAW ON MY STRENGTH AND WEATHER THE STORM.
ITZ FUNNY HOW SOMEONE ASKS IF THE OTHER IS UNCOMFORTABLE IN SILENCE, BUT WHEN HE IS QUIET, THEN HE MUST HAVE AN ATTITUDE ABOUT SOMETHING. THE VERY SAME THING HEZ FAULTED FOR DOING WITH HER.
GO FIGURE.
THERE WAS NO INSULT TO BE FELT THIS BECAUSE NOTHING INSULTED WAS SAID OR DONE.
THE MAIN REASON FOR THE FEELING OF "INSULTEDNESS"(I MADE IT UP)WAS BECAUSE THE HAND OF HELP WAS SWATTED AWAY AS THOUGH I WAS SOME HOMELESS PERSON BEGGING FOR A QUARTER. SHE MIGHT NOT HAVE REALIZED THIS, BUT I AM OF CARIBBEAN DESCENT SO TEA IS A FORM OF HELP WHEN IT COMES TO MATTERS OF THE STOMACH, TEA AND RUM. TEA IS A NATURAL SEDATIVE AND SO IS MILK. WHO WOULD'VE GUESS THAT TEA WOULD'VE GIVEN HER THE RUNS.
NOT I!!!!
I DON'T EXPECT HER TO READ MY MIND, BUT I DO EXPECT HER TO BE BETTER THAN THE PLEBIANS IN OUR LIVES. MAYBE SHE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT GOES ALONG WITH THE PHRASE, ITZ CALLED EMOTIONS!!!!! SO ASKING THAT PARTICULAR QUESTION IS VERY UPSETTING, ESPECIALLY WHEN U CAN'T THIS CHICK OUT UR FUCKING HEAD AND UR BODY CRAVES JUST BEING NEAR HER, AND NOT FOR SEXUAL REASONS EITHER. BUT I GUESS THEREZ NO WAY FOR HE TO KNOW THIS EITHER, RIGHT? ESPECIALLY IF SHEZ NOT IN THE SAME PLACE AS I AM.
PEOPLE COMPLAIN WHEN I'M MORE LOGICAL THAN EMOTIONAL, THEREZ A GOOD REASON FOR IT. I CAN'T AFFORD TO BE GOING THRU THE UPS AND DOWNS OF THE BOVINE FECES. I'M ALREADY PULLED APART IN MY LIFE AND TO DEAL WITH THIS GETTING TOO MUCH.
TALK ABOUT CHAOS.....FEELINGS ARE CHAOTIC!!!!
SHE MENTIONED THAT I BROUGHT UP AN INCIDENT THAT I PROMISED THAT I WOULDN'T. BUT HOW IS ASKING FOR THE TIME FRAME BRINGING UP THE INCIDENT ITSELF?
AND SHE STILL CAN'T GET WHAT I'M SAYING ABOUT TELLING ME STUFF.
"Your focus seems to be on the fact that you are friends and can talk about anything. But the thing is, you CAN talk about everything, it doesnt mean that you HAVE to."
"Maybe, this is about a very broken individual who is trying her best to make sense of her life, and isnt exactly 100% comfortable talking about some things even to her best friends of years and years, much less someone she has known less than two months?"
" In speaking with a few people close to her, she has been advised to leave this relationship NOW, to go, because it can only lead to mental anguish and emotional distress. Different people, same answers."
SHE "CLAIMS" TO "LOVE" ME, BUT CAN'T COME TO ME TO TALK? BUT ABLE TO TALK TO OTHERS?
THEN FINE, MAYBE SHE SHOULD LISTEN TO THEM AFTER ALL. I MEAN....HEY, I JUST SOMEONE IN LOVE WITH THIS CHICK. IF U FEEL THAT U HAVE TO BOUNCE TO SAVE UR SANITY, THEN GO.
I'LL MISS U DEARLY, BUT I'LL LIVE.
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