I SENSE A CHANGE IN THE AIR.......

ME AND MY BOY
POSTED BY "SABRE"
I FEEL LIKE A CHANGE IS COMING AND I'M NOT SURE IF IT HAS TO DO WITH MY SON OR ME OR BOTH.
WILL THE ABSENCE OF HIM REALLY REVERT ME TO WHO I WAS B4 OR WILL IT JUST MAKE ME BITTER TOWARDS WOMEN. I CAN FEEL ME NOT CARING ABOUT THINGS ALREADY, I'M STARTING TO NOT EVEN SEE PEOPLE AS PEOPLE, BUT AS OBJECTS AGAIN, LIKE I'M BECOMING DISTANT ALL OVER AGAIN.
I REMEMBER HAVING MY HANDS AROUND SOMEONES NECK AND JUST WATCHING THEM CHOKE AND THERE WAS NO REMORSE AT ALL, IF IT WASN'T FOR A FRIEND OF MINE, I KNOW THAT I WOULDA KILLED HIM.
I HAVE TO SUCCEED IN MY ENDEAVORS OR I'M GONNA SLOWLY DESTROY ME.
PEOPLE USED TO THINK THAT I HATED THINGS A LOT WHEN THAT WASN'T WHAT IT WAS, IT WAS JUST THAT I DIDN'T CARE. I'M VERY DISTANT, EVEN MORE SO WHEN I CARE AND ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M HURT. BUT THEN THATZ WHEN IT BECOMES DANGEROUS CAUSE I'LL COME AFTER U WITH BOTH BARRELS BLAZING!!!!
IF I'VE DONE U NO HARM, THEN DON'T HURT ME.
HURT ME AT UR OWN RISK.
WHAT I FEAR MOST OF ALL IS HOW MY ABSENCE WILL BE ON HIM. HEZ A "THOMAS" IN MORE THAN BLOOD, BUT IN SPIRIT!!!!
AND WHOA UNTO ANYONE THAT CROSSES HIS PATH WHEN ANGERED WHEN HE GROWS UP. SO FAR, I'VE BEEN ABLE TO STIFLE IT, BUT WITHOUT ME THERE, MY BOY IS GONNA DO TIME. HE ALREADY HAS MOST OF MY DISLIKES AND RAGE, BUT HE DOESN'T HAVE MY MOTHER TO QUELL HIS FURNACE, LIKE SHE DID FOR ME.
THE WRONG JUDEGMENT IS GONNA RUIN HIS LIFE!!!!!